Boy, that last post was a whole lot of stuff that didn’t say anything, huh?
I did want to have something “on record” about the difference between TiVo and OnDemand. And there you have it. But the dirty secret was also that I was really ticked off about something else and didn’t even want to go there so I wrote about another, dryer topic.
What am I ticked off about? Well, in another setting I happen to belong to a small group of people. There are other groups in this same setting that are much larger in size. But as is typical with gatherings of people, we’ve divided along several natural fault lines and those in my smaller bunch tend to be shyer and more comfortable with those they know. And I’d just received word that several key people–group sponsors–are toying with leaving the group, in part because it’s too small. There is even talk of disbanding the group.
That’s what makes me mad. Granted, there are only six to eight regular attenders in our group, while the next one over can boast twice that number. Should that matter? None of us are paid, so the group leaders aren’t missing some type of reimbursement by facilitating a smaller bunch. There is no extra rent charged, so the existence of our smaller unit doesn’t cost extra. There is another group, equally small, that is not only supported eagerly but encouraged–despite its size. Yet that group is set up to appeal to a more select demographic. Probably why no one has talked about cutting them loose.
But my bunch is the quiet group of wierdo thinkers. For various reasons–one of them being the fact that few in our group has kids–we’re sort of the odd men out. I think that none of us mind that. Except apparently the leaders. Who no longer want to lead, and wonder if we should be a group at all. And that makes me feel both even more left out and abandoned.
Oh well. This is ever the problem in groups like this. This constant attempt to establish “worth”. And right now I feel distinctly unworthy. Not a good thing. Here’s the thing, people of America.
What you do for a living isn’t who you are. Making more money than another person doesn’t make you automatically better than the other person. If you live in a big house, good for you. If you drive a big car, good for you. I’m glad for your success. But the fact that something isn’t large or expensive or flashy doesn’t mean that it isn’t important.